||*memories of my past*||

memories

Wednesday, January 10, 2018
10:48 AM

Oh well.

Maybe it’s irreversible unlike how I would imagine.

If this could end, maybe everything don’t matter anymore

Maybe I don’t matter anymore.

But just suck it all up. Spit the fats out. Go to a temple n become a monk.

It doesn’t help anyone if you are showing the rash and the brash side of u.

After all, you still care about what they think of u,

N maybe that part of u is sth that could never be shaken off of u,
No matter how hard u try.

After all, it’s all part of ur character, like what she said.

None of it is distinct of one another.

But to be honest. I’m still confused.

I couldn’t let it go, I just can’t

Coz there are too much at stake.

I’m not sure if it’s all out of love

But what is love? If u don’t take procession?

I’m not the old processive me that I used to be.

But how would u want me to be?

I’m willing to be whoever to get it back on track.

But that would infringe a distinct character that I was playing all the while.

Or should I come up with a better one.

It’s all a mess.

With an empty stomach in the car outside the gym.

I tried to cry...

想。。。。